Things are over with Bridgette. Earlier today, I had to break up with her. See Bridgette lives in N.S. and she was supposed to move here next year. Her and I kept a constant line of communication open and we were always interested in what we had to say. We shared great nights and I'm gonna miss her so much. She said she wasn't sure about moving with me anymore. And after talking about it, she wasn't sure about continuing the relationship anymore. In our conversation, I knew there was more to it then that. She just wouldn't tell me the truth. She said she didn'T want to leave her horse and her friends. I offered to move there (even though its the worst thing for my futur career), and she said there wouldn't be the job I want there.

After asking a million questions, I ended up getting the answer out of her: there's someone else.

My heart shattered into a million pieces, like a fine china plate getting shot by a .50 calibre sniper rifle at close range. It was a feeling like no other.

Now, she's ignoring all my calls and texts. I did NOTHING WRONG in this relationship. EVERYTHING WAS GOING GREAT!! WHY DID SHE HAVE TO DO THAT? WE WERE PERFECT!!! WE TALKED ABOUT GETTING MARRIED, AND SPENDING OUR LIVES TOGETHER. AND IT ALL WENT AWAY FOR WHAT? SOME OTHER GUY? JUST BECAUSE HE'S CLOSER? SHE LOVES ME, AND LIKES HIM????

This is the worst thing ever. Its the fact that she's the one who likes another guy, and she's the one ignoring me. and I feel like I'm the cause for everything (even though I'm not), I take the blame for this and I'm dying right now. I cried all day in class. ALL DAY! I didn't care who saw me. I was heartbroken two times by the same girl in 12 hours.

What is there left to do?

I feel dead inside..